A Thorn Turns Into A Rose

This weekend was the best weekend, but then again the worst. Let’s start out with the worst, because who wants to end with bad news. My birthday party was this weekend, and not everyone got to come. I understand that they couldn’t  come, but it would have been nice if they could have.

The good thing is this was the best birthday party, and weekend of my life! My two best friends threw a surprise party for me Friday, then Saturday we went to Skyzone with all my friends. I am a little sore, but it was totally worth it. I got to laugh and cry with my favorite people in the world. I will always remember that moment.

When You Think You Are Done

I have two moments where I thought I was done, and could no longer go on.

March 31st, some had gone home to sleep, shower, and just breath. I was one of those people. We drove from Clark county to Scott county. We weren’t aware of what was in store. We got the call at around 3 in the morning. We rushed back to the hospital. We ran through the doors to find all family hugging and crying. My Papaw had passes away in the night. He had been in the hospital for months, and we knew it would happen soon, but we didn’t want to think about it. I cried for weeks. My Papaw had lived with us for about five or six years, and now I didn’t have anyone to get water for, or sneak him ice cream. The only thing that really got me through was music. My Papaw always played guitar, and sang. So I started to learn piano, and sang more often. Now I think about the good things that happened when he was here. All of the laughter, and him talking in his Donald Duck voice.

My other moment was when my best friend moved away. It was in the summer of first grade going into second. At the time I thought I would never get to see her, but she only moved like ten minutes away. We have been best friends ever since she moved in, our families are closer than ever, and I could never imagine my life without her.

Spring Break Adventures? Or How Bored Can I Get Adventures?

So what you expect when Spring Break comes around? I think of the warmth of the sun shining down. The laughters and fun times with friends and family. This week I spent all week away from home pretty much. I was at Jenny’s house for a while, then I went to my sister Abby’s house for a day, then my other sister Larissa came and picked me up. I was at her house till Thursday. We ate a lot, because I like food and she is pregnant.

Once my dad picked me up we went home, and I slept for the rest of the day. The next day my mom, dad, and I went to go see Insurgent! It was amazing! Divergent was good, then you have Insurgent! So that day before the movie, there was this guy who added me on Facebook and Instagram. So I messaged him and asked him if we knew each other. He said no, and it all started from there. I never talk about guys I talk to, but I had to!

So not that exciting of a Spring Break…….

ROAK

I feel like I do random acts a lot, not to sound cocky, but small or big I try to do them everyday. I am a person where I don’t like spit, puke, poop, or anything like that, so having a nephew is hard. He was at my house yesterday, and I offered to change his diaper. That’s pretty serious for me. I like kids, but not what comes out of them.

Friday at the play there was this little girl who dropped her cookie, so I picked it up for her and got her a new one. An RAOK doesn’t have to be this big thing, but you need to do it with a big heart. Have the mind set that it doesn’t matter if I get anything out of it, just the good thought.

The Law’s of a Smart Man

All of these laws have a lot of truth to them. I have two laws that speak to me the most. The first is number three. “There is always somebody who knows better than you what you meant with your message.” This law makes me think of Monday morning. The passage door on my moms vans wouldn’t unlock, so she asked, “Can you get in through the drive side?” I told her yeah so I climbed through the seat, and accidentally got ice on her seat. She yelled at me and asked why I got in that way. I thought she meant to climb through, but she just meant can you still get in the driver door. I just misunderstood dear mother!

My next one is 1.4 truthful law. “If you are satisfied that your communication is bound to succeed then the communication is bound to fail.” This makes me think of having a deep conversation with someone. I always think that what I tell someone with go well, but it never does. Lets take telling a guy you have a crush on him, you think oh yeah he will take this well, and maybe he will like me back. Then low and behold he doesn’t, you just think ok….well. So it always fails!

Valentine’s Day Galore

To me Valentine’s Day isn’t a bad thing being single, till you scroll through Instagram. You see all things cute things people did for their girlfriend, and you want that to. People always say that all they did was eat junk food and watch movies, people I do that everyday!

Yeah I get jealous, but then I think I didn’t have any money to buy anything for anyone anyway, so it’s a good thing I don’t have a boyfriend. Saturday my momma was my valentine, I gave her a big hug, and posted stuff on Instagram about how awesome she is. You don’t need to be in a relationship to have a valentine, just family and friends can satisfy your needs.

Does My Confidence Decrease With My Number of Likes?

I have never been a confident person, I am outgoing on the outside, but on the inside I have never been confident. I will admit when I get more likes than usual on a selfie it does make me feel better. It makes me think that maybe I am pretty, or I actually look good when I think I didn’t. When I don’t get as many likes, I just think wow why did I post that, that was stupid. My confidence can be lowered or rise depending on my likes.

I am guilty of this, and I shouldn’t be. I should be confident no matter how many likes I get, but I can’t help it. To this world it is almost human instinct or knowledge to think this way. We revolve around what people think of us, and either not they like us. Are we pretty, funny, or smart? These questions always tried to be answered by social media, but they should be answered by friends or family. Don’t let social media rule your mind and thoughts. Speaking to number one over here!

The Excitement That Is Coming Near

Both of my sisters got married young. Abby had a kid right away, which was just like, wow. Larissa and Sam have waited for a while. They wanted to wait for like four years, well that didn’t happen. She is pregnant! I love being an aunt to Charlie. Now I get to be an aunt again. She had her first appointment on January 27th, and we got to see the little child. They don’t know what is it yet, but I want it to be a little girl.

The funniest thing about Larissa being pregnant is her high chance of having more than one kid. They kinda already know that they are having one, but I hope that changes. So Larissa is a twin, then she married a twin, so there is a high chance of having twins, but an even higher chance of having triplets. I hope she has triplets! That would be really hard for them, but then again so awesome. I would be able to say that I have triplets nieces or nephews! I am just so excited for them, and also me!

The Eyes On the Other Side

My day starts early in the mooring. Getting my two children up, and getting myself up and ready. My students don’t think life is hard for a teacher. All they see is a little short young woman with two kids. They don’t see my hardships, or my struggles in life. I don’t give all of my secrets away, but I let them see the good side of my life. I want to be a light to the students, and let them know that life can be a great adventure, but they are the tour guide.

I come into the classroom knowing what I am going to teach, but not knowing what will happen. What if there is a fight, or some one gets stabbed by a pencil. Being a teacher is scary. I look at all of my students, some are great students and try hard, but others sleep all class period. I only wish that they would wake up, and realize that this class isn’t so bad. I look into all of the students eyes, I see loneliness, depression, and sadness. If only they knew how much I actually cared. I want all of my students to be successful, and happy.

A Quote of Truth

This quote to me is very truthful. Reading this quote makes me think about myself, and my thoughts and actions. This quote explains watching what you should do in your life. Making sure that you are doing what you can to be a good person. I believe that your thoughts start it all.

This quote really deals with me. I read it, and could feel it in my chest. Watching what I say, think, and do is something that I need to accomplish in my life. I am a very negative person inside. I don’t believe in myself, and my future. If I keep thinking that I won’t succeed, then it will eventually become my life. I don’t want to be a person who can’t leave their house, because they are scared or nervous. I want to go out and accomplish the world with 100%. Looking at this quote again makes me really want to change. I am going to try and stop thinking negative, and be a more proud person.